like a child

I had a fantastic day today. Spent the entire day with Guan and Charng Sherng. Wanted to go to Ikea for my favourite chicken wings but apparently the queue was too long *quoted by Charng Sherng. We went to Suntec instead and have a scrumptious buffet! *smack lips.
I begin to feel muscles; especially my hamstring starts to ache, due to overdoing my workout yesterday (3 hours in the gym, the longest time ever) I bought dragon beard candy although I never like peanuts. I wish Roshan will be here to pick up the nuts for me.

We then went for dinner in Changi Village and had seafood because I had cravings for shellfish. It was cheap and good! There was 5 of us and we ordered 5 dishes! Yummy~
I met up with Fee Chin and we talked nonstop. It was really good to see her again. Misses her so much. She's such a nice person.

I realised I have left my keys behind when I was in hurry out of the house. I stayed with Guan till my brother get back. We went to the Pasir Ris park and I really had fun, just like a child. I was so excited and started running around the park. I couldn't remember when was the last time I was on a swing. Decade ago maybe? I remembered when I was very little, say about 4, along with my brother, my mom pushed us on a swing. Perhaps that was my very first attempt on it. I was laughing so hard and my dad took a photo of us and our mouth was wide open. My mom kept saying, hold on tight cause you are going higher! I remember laughing and it was the happiest moment in 4 years of life.

My bubbles of thoughts was burst by a group of intruder consist of 3 toddlers with their mommies. I shy away as I was 3 times the rider's size. It was fun until they came.

sunset view from the plane

power of prayer

What are some ways of dealing with jealousy?
Develop independence. We need to be sure we are not overly dependant on any one person. We need to focus on the good things we have and not on what we don't have.
Focus on developing more confidence and attractiveness. Sometimes something simple like getting our hair done or changing our style of clothing can help. Taking a course on self esteem or assertiveness is also beneficial.
Be honest with yourself. Sit down with paper and list things that are making you jealous. Look at it objectively. Are these things silly or trivial or are they really important?
Communicate with the person who is the object of your jealousy. Tell them your feelings. Is that person doing something that is causing you to be jealous? Letting them know can often help the problem. If this other person cares for you, they will work on changing the behavior that is adding to your jealousy. Being aware of your feelings can also help you cope better. Realize that jealousy shows your lack of self esteem and uncertainty of your own worth. Work on taking a really good self evaluation. This experience can be a wonderful learning opportunity for you. Work on communication with other people. Work on developing confidence.
Study your rival. Look closely at the person you are jealous about. What do you like and dislike about the person? Are his or her qualities beyond your abilities? Be sure you are not being unrealistic about that person. Are you seeing things as they really are? Take control of your feelings. Terminate the relationship if nothing else seems to work. Take the time to concentrate on your own growth. Work at trying to understand and improve your relationship.
Do not overreact. Remember, most incidents are temporary so don't magnify what happened. Serious jealousy stems from a fear of loss, reputation, control of ourselves, our spouses, or relationships. Losing control of our emotions and feelings will only make things worse.

have gone mad

Was sleeping peacefully but was woken up at 4am to open the door for a buddy friend.

Now he's sleeping like a baby on the couch while I m glued to the chair, reading blogs, other people's blog. That's sad.

A little zombied feeling, sorta regret deleting my previous blog. I had so much fun with it, even more now that I have left my job.

*Sigh

life seems locked inside, wanting to get out