wannabe someone someday

A new life begin

2012-02-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

Lately, sis and I have been very intrigued with the life of butterflies. Give my sister a garden and she tells you tale of a gecko lizard all the way to the life of a caterpillar.

She's someone who picks up earth worms with her bare hands and as the worm wiggles away from her, she simply snaps photos of it, amazed with the way it moves.

Out of boredom, mom would ask us to play outside and get some sun instead of, according to her, sitting in front of the "electronic brain", beeping away. I suppose she is referring to the beeps as we click on the computer.

So we would go hunting for caterpillars off the lime tree.

Sis is able to give you tips on what sort of leaves they chew on. Not too hard and not too young, she would say.

Don't get her started because she would scramble through her collection of photos on caterpillars and you have to pay attention. Otherwise, she will pat and nudge with her elbow.

Yes. A photo album of just caterpillars. Sideways caterpillar eating leaves. Curled up caterpillar taking its nap or probably smiling at the camera. Birdview caterpillar propelling itself with all its might on a keyboard from Letter A to Letter G. I must stress that a caterpillar would never want to be looked upon from a bird's view.

Once, my dad was so impressed with her, he told her to join the National Geographic team. He is unaware that National Geographic captures video of vicious animals such as sharks and hyenas, not bugs and chubby caterpillars.

As I watch my sister's home made video of a caterpillar turning into a butterfly from a cocoon, I was so amazed with life. It would squirm and writhe, appearing as though it is in great pain just to get out its comfort zone into a world full of cannibals.

Yet, we whine and complain the dress that we like so much is sold out.

Sis said that the life of a butterfly lasts for 5 days.

WHAT??!

After all that struggling and squirming?

Dawn draws near

2012-01-30T10:13:00.000+08:00

I didn't really sleep well, partly due to the reluctant wait for the next day. I slowly peeled myself away from the bed and took a shower a tad longer than the usual ones. I buttoned up my shirts in a daze and went on to brush my hair. Dragging each stroke slightly longer than the one before.

I store my toiletries neatly and smoothen my bed, unsure when I will be using them again.

Once downstairs with my luggages, everyone was glum and unwilling to break the silence. Even the dog shared the solemn moment. I almost thought I am attending a funeral.

At this pace, I realised my story above resembles a memoir of a prisoner sent to a death sentence.

Dad is taking me to Sushi Tae, a slightly more lavish than usual treat. I have always hated my last meal before I am being sent off. I have no idea what's the significance of it. I guess as parent, they just want to make sure that I have the best they can provide before sending me off.

Smileys

2012-01-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

This is what happens when you leave a marker pen lying around.

And this is what happens when you leave two pomelos and a marker pen lying around.

We were suppose to go sing karaoke tonight but in the end, we ended up gambling again. I even prepared a list of songs I wanted to sing.

*Heave a sigh.

Happiness rating

2012-01-29T01:34:00.002+08:00

Much to my chagrin, I will be leaving to Singapore in a few days time.

Happiness rating (out of 10) while I am in Klang with mom and sis *********

First * - not having to worry if I will be eating alone
Second * - having clean clothes folded neatly, magically reappearing in my shelves
Third * - have a magic car, forever filled up petrol by itself.
Fourth * - eternal phone bill waiver.
Firth * - a mom who cracks jokes with a straight face. I never fail to laugh when she is around.
Sixth * - a sister who laughs at a mom who talks to a plant.
Seventh * - Sasha, who aspire to be a mouse.
Eight * - freedom to drop dead in any part of the house, primarily the living room to catch a quick nap.
Nine * - freedom to speak broken mandarin and calling the dog's name in high pitched tone and nobody even cared.
Tenth * - when lunch isn't just chicken rice and going to mamak stalls is part of a routine.

Happiness rating in Singapore, alone and constantly worrying about numbers *---------

Seriously, can't think of any. The one star above is for Old Chang Kee curry puff.

*clamped myself to the tree.

*swallowed the key

Love actually

2012-01-29T01:33:00.001+08:00

Simplicity

WIFI

2012-01-29T00:16:00.003+08:00

Many years ago, actually, not so many years ago. It was just 2 years ago, we didn't have WIFI then. I suppose it's exactly like living back in the 90's where we didn't have internet connection and we still live on. Happily.

In fact, I believe life was much simpler. I remember interacting with my friends more often and I read more books then.

Now, I am so used to high speed 3G network running on my phone at all times, that I am having a hard time adjusting my day without the internet.

I also realised that I don't look at my phone during dinner or while waiting for my mom. I simply bring my book along.

Before we got our WIFI, we only had a workstation to assess the internet. Being the ~~older~~ younger sister, I always get the privilege to ~~shoo~~ ask my sister give in to me and she would obediently make way for me. We actually had to fight over the computer. At times, to the extend of my sister suddenly announcing in the car on the way home, I get to use the internet! I have booked it already.

Now that we have our WIFI, my sister would message me via facebook while I m sitting in the living room and she's upstairs in her room. Probably busy stuffing her face with potato chips.

sasha, going thru withdrawal syndrome

The Malaysia Way

2012-01-28T19:36:00.005+08:00

After running some errands in the morning, Aunt, sis and I stopped over at one of the coffee shops for lunch.

There were ample of parking spaces so this is what we did.

I simply love Malaysia. As I say this, I have the biggest smirk on my face that you would tell me to wipe it off before you start punching me.

Unlike in Singapore, we would have been shot twice in the head and got our parent's names involved.

And then, our level of education will be dragged into the situation also. Although I fail to see any relevance with education and parking.

*Mom was looking over my shoulder at my passion fruits post and she pointed at the photos, nice hor? How come never take photos of the flower buds? Go and take some more la.

She also instructed me to add, to plant a passion fruit cannot add too much pesticides. Also, must wrap the fruits loosely, not too tight.

She's now giving tips. Great.

Mom, I blew up sis

2012-01-28T19:15:00.003+08:00

Poof!

Trip to the dentist

2012-01-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

I have always been very fearful of the dentist. The thought of me lying helplessly on the chair feels like I am being sent for death sentence.

I am very prompt with my bi-annual check up in fear of cavity and as the end of 6th month dawn closer, I begin to have nerve breakdown.

Whilst my mom was driving me to the dentist today, I kept whining like a sick puppy. I told her this would be the last moment she saw me and she should appreciate our time together.

She threw dirty glance at me and called me a drama queen.

I told her, I hate dentist so much so that I rather have toothache than to be drilled.

But my mom is a confrontational mom. She always preached, it's better to confront than to elude. And then she said to me, what's the worse that could happened. She added, even Super Heroes are afraid of dentist.

You know what, I actually felt much better after she said that.

I turned out alright after all. Dr. Evil says nothing wrong with my teeth and they are in good condition. It was mere scaling and polishing.

*Praise the Lord.

Things to do before you leave Klang

2012-01-27T14:30:00.002+08:00

One of the few things to do while in Klang is of course to have Bak Kut Teh.

The saying that goes, if you have never tried Bak Kut Teh, you have never been to Klang.

Our already-famous food blogger Ivan Tan, (must show support a bit) wanted to write a review so my mom took him to our usual place, Ah Tao Bak Kut Teh, located somewhere in Bukit Tinggi. For more details, please click here.

I am not exactly a big fan of Bak Kut Teh. It's absurb, I know. I was born and bred in Klang. How can I possibly not love Bak Kut Teh? I asked myself the same question too.

I ate all the mushrooms though.

Just for laugh, I cheekily asked my mom an closed ended question. I said, Ma, among your two daughters, I am the prettier one right?

And she said, Of course la.

*widest grin you can ever imagined!

Disclaimer: Although, if you have asked her, among your two daughters, who is the fillial one, I wouldn't have qualified.

Passion fruit

2012-01-27T02:03:00.001+08:00

Sometime ago, my mom went to the market. That's what aunties do, right? They go to the market. At the market, someone tried to sell her 'tau geh' and claimed that those are organic bean sprout. Mom being mom, she thought it was a good deal. So she paid for them and was happy with the transaction.

And then a wise person told her that those bean sprouts were precious and asked if my mom was willing to give 'em up in exchange for a potted plant. Aunty being aunty, she thought to herself, hey, this is a good deal. I am getting a plant out of a beans and she got herself even better deal. She immediately agreed to it and she came home with the plant.

The above story is of course, fiction. I just made it up. What mattered most was that someone gave her a pot of 5 inches tall passion fruit plant and it got her occupied for months. She probably would have told me about how she got the plant. I just didn't pay enough attention to remember them.

So anyway, whenever she came to visit, she would show us photos of her plant growing. We would nod in approval when she says, Passion has grown 6 inches today.

She has a name for it, Passion. Great! We were, initially very happy that something were keeping her occupied.

At first it started of as a proud caretaker. Then it turned into an obsession. She would talk about how tall it has grown. Then she would call to tell us that it has sprout it's first fruit.

Soon, it was the only thing she talked about. At this rate, I was getting a little worried. She actually built a mini orchard for the passion fruits, wooden frames and all!!! Her sweat and blood for staying under the sun, ensuring they are safe from pesticides. She even wraps them up individually! She would talked about them as though it was part of her flesh and blood.

Suddenly, I had to share my mother with a plant! I can't help but to feel a gush of jealousy. I wondered if she talks about me to her friends the way she talks about the fruits. At one point, she snapped photos of each fruit and pointed to me, this one is going to ripe soon. This one will take about 2 more weeks. This one, last week, a bird tried to peck on it but I manage to shoo it away.

I didn't exaggerate when I said an orchard.

It will be an alarming state if she starts giving each fruit a name.

Meet Bob

This is Timmy

And yes, I have been drinking passion fruit juice for breakfast. She even bought a jug from IKEA and it had to be made of glass, especially for the passion fruit juice. Suggesting plastic jug is suicidal.

It's still Chinese Year

2012-01-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

It's the fourth day of the Chinese New Year and I have yet to stop stuffing my face with keropok and cookies.

Today, we are going over to my 4th uncle house and there are debates going on.

Sorry, internal joke.

After which, we are heading to KLCC for a scrumptious dinner organised by our gung ho, food master who aspire to eat for free when he is famous, he is none other than Ivan Tan. *applaud

We drove to KLCC via SMART Tunnel. Apparently, it is smart because it's able to shut of by itself once KL is flooded. It's very costly though but some said it's worth it. Anything that avoids the infamous KL jam is definitely worth it.

We shopped a little, ate a little and of course, laughed a lot before heading to the restaurant.

Everyone in the family is still in a new year mode. Eat, laugh and be merry. Merrily losing money to one another.

I have been gambling none stop since the eve of new year. My mom didn't even bother to keep her sets. No prize for guessing who taught me how to gamble at the age of 10.

I swear if she puts equal effort in teaching me how to write in chinese, I would have became world interpreter representing China by now.

Trip to IKEA

2012-01-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

I have always wanted to get some shelves to organise my art supplies. Being an avid crafter, I yearn for space and storage.

I asked if my sister wants to go to IKEA and she yelps with joy. She says, she has never eaten their meatball and would like to finally try some.

The poor kid.

As for my mom, I don't know how she ended up coming along. She just hopped onto the car as we were about to leave and she said, let's go.

I like to elaborate a little further about going to IKEA. The place is a happy place to be. Brightly clad in yellow and shoppers friendly, who does not like going to IKEA?

And of course, happy being happy, we just kept stuffing things into our yellow environmental friendly shopping bag. Mom being mom, she picked alot of household items according to her imagination that she will use them.

So I said, sure, go ahead, you are paying for them.

Miraculously, when we approached the cashier, the items were much lesser. 4 mugs became 2 mugs. RM49 dish drainer became RM19 and we only took a lonely cushion instead of 2.

Good job, Mom.

We stopped by at Pak Li for a nice bowl of cendol before heading home to assemble my shelves.

Pak Li Cendol priced at RM3.20, generous self serving of gula melaka

Someone asked me today why do I look so drained.

In total, I assembled 4 shelves. Not mentioning hunting them at the storage warehouse and carrying them around.

I am gonna sleep like a log tonight after a day trip to IKEA.

Goodbye Rabbit

2012-01-24T22:54:00.003+08:00

We usually get together on the Eve of the New Year and have a grand dinner together. This year, Aunt got us a pot of 'treasures' from V garden. I am not exactly sure what is it called. It has a name and I am very sure it meant golden, prosperity and somewhere along that line.

I am just happy that we have it this year because it is one of my favourite dish. I love the lucky vege also known as fatt choy. It look alot like seaweed, taste like seaweed and smells like seaweed. I have no idea why is it called a vege let a lot lucky. And then 10 prawns lined up back to back one another along the pot.
Underneath is where all the yummy goodies hides. Mushrooms, seacucumber, slices of abalone and brocolli.

I love 'em all!

It's priced at RM298 from V garden and it comes with the pot! I was very attracted to pot because how many dishes comes with a pot?! It's very clever because it is pre arranged and pre cooked. All we need to do is just heat it and Ta daa!

The main limelight of the night.

Joke of the year. Mom was telling me that this year we will avoid artificially coloured drinks and she opt for POP soda drink. So, she called Ai Hoi over the phone to get the lemon flavoured ones.

And our friend showed up much later with TOP detergent, lemon scented.

Mom was so dumbfounded that she said, why would she want to buy lemon scented detergent on a New Year?

And then she added, want to commit suicide also not this way.

I think it was so funny when mom was telling me about it. I kept laughing because I can imagine her facial expression when Ai Hoi were to show up with a packet of detergent instead of soda drinks.

So this year, we all had home-brewed chrysanthemum tea instead of lemon flavoured soda drink.

I am still laughing about it.

On the 2nd day of the new year

2012-01-24T20:52:00.001+08:00

On a yearly basis, we would go up to visit our grandma's town which is about 2 hours drive south. When we were younger, it used to be called, land of far far away.

Because everyone is no longer small and thin, we went on 2 cars. I had a better advantage because the only person who knows the way is on my team. The other team had to tail me instead.

*evil laugh.

The place amazingly has a 1970s feel.

I cheekily asked my sister, "Got WIFI?"

And she gave me this look =.="

Dog welcoming dragon

2012-01-24T17:09:00.000+08:00

I sprung up from bed remembering that we did not take a photo of the dog for the new year. I rushed down, pyjamas and all, nudged my sister to come along with me on our photo taking project. Not too bad you'd say ey?

And here are some of before shots.

Sasha take 1

Sasha take 2

take 3

take 4

SASHA!!!

that's my sister threatening to cook her

And she reconsiders

*heart* sasha

New Year 2012

2012-01-24T00:09:00.006+08:00

So today is the first day of the Lunar New Year, after series of everlasting, on-going fireworks last night. I slept like a baby regardless and was attuned to the noise. What bothers me more was the pollution it caused to the environment. During school, I wrote an essay and debated that fireworks bring more harm than good. I hope eventually, people may reconsider not burning fireworks but welcome the new year in more environmental friendly ways.

I woke up to 2 shrieking toddlers and I spent some time making origami with them. I really don't think they are impressed with folding papers at all. They seem more interested in crumbling the papers and tossing it around. The poor adults had to pick them up later. Children enjoys being destructive more than constructive. We ended up watching wheels on the bus on youtube.

After which, the usual gang came by and it was really fun to have so many people crowd inside the house. Which ever corner I go to, there will eventually be someone there. Roaming from the couch potato adults in living room to kids playing with toy cars in the kitchen. And then we have the aunties playing mahjong in the patio.

I like the feeling that everyone is very homey with each other because we practically grew up with each other.

Every year, we would take a family photo and it is something that everyone look forward to be a part of.

This year, we synchronised the theme and everyone will be wearing something red for the fun of it. Apparently, one family was not notified in advance. It's easy to spot which family.

Anyhow, anyho, here's some snapshot of the photos, before and after.

What's funny here is that I was delegating who sits where while my sister was arranging the camera angle. She took some snapshots of me assigning. I had a toddler wanting me and only me to carry her. She can be seen waiting patiently on my left.

The guy on the far left tries to camouflage himself.

So the first shot is usually the formal shot.

Then funny shot.

And then moral booster shot. So I suggested, HUAT AH!

Everyone follows suit and when we did, the camera man who is also the domestic helper broke to laughter.

It's nice to have a big family who works well with each other. We are very co operative whereby it's easy to delegate, assign and instruct. It's a great family to be a part of.

It's all in the mind

2012-01-22T23:55:00.005+08:00

Many people told me that running is all in the mind.

When I announced that I will be joining the sun down, many experienced runner commented, running is about willpower and I just have to set the right mind to do it.

At gym, I don't fancy running because I find running on treadmill pointless. I just warm up for 15 mins and I am off for bodystep classes. I can't resist the temptation to give up. It keeps ringing at the back of my mind to just call it a quit.

So, because I made an oath to lose 5kg this year, I am going to do something about it.

(Having read the book Monk who sold his Ferrari has evaluated my resolution and I am going to do something it.

Just the other day, I was rushing for my bodystep class and I missed it because I was late. I had no choice but to run on the treadmill instead.

By the time I reached 2km, I was panting away, gasping for air. But somehow I persevered and I kept on going.

Think of happy thoughts. Just keep thinking of happy thoughts! I hear alot of voices to tell me to quit and give myself a break. Think of slimmer and healthier me. Envision leaner body. And I did 6km today!

Amount of calories burned? It aint enough to cover the plate of char kuay teow I ate the other day.

Sigh

I am going to the gym. Sumpah!

2012-01-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

I rushed home from work to get dressed for the annual dinner and earlier in the day, I roughly had an idea what I will be wearing for the night.

Something I bought quite a while ago but never had a chance to wear it. So tonight is gonna be ideal.

I squirmed into my mint conditioned dress and reached back to zip up. Of course the tale to tell is that I had difficulty zipping up thru my waistline. So I sucked in, stood taller and tried again. It simply wouldn't budge. I just can't zip it up no matter how hard I sucked in.

In the end, fearful I may just tear the zipper in frustration, I gave up and just don on a looser dress and rushed off.

I am going to the gym and shed off the 5kg!!!

Sumpah~

Guest of honour

2012-01-21T01:11:00.004+08:00

Tonight is a very memorable night for me.

Aside from the 7million toto that I have been looking forward to since 2 days ago, I was invited to attend a company dinner and dance.

Well, it may seem awkward and impromptu. I didn't know how to respond to it as in to gracefully accept it or to supposedly reject the invite-out-of-courtesy kind of invitation.

I did both. That's usually the wisest choice.

And at that moment, when the invitation was advanced to me, my brain were working all at once. Thousands of thoughts were going through my mind. It's like being stuck in a lift with Angelina Jolie and thinking really hard of what to say to her.

First I politely said thank you for the invite and I am very honoured. And then I went, but not so nice-lah to be so out of place.

Finally, I decided to accept it gracefully. After all, how often do I get a MD to personally make a phone call to me.

And then I went, shucks, what have I gotten myself into.

See, thousands and one things going thru my mind.

Now, the dinner turned out to be so good that I actually wanted to be apart of the company.

Firstly, they had ice breaking games to move everyone about. Not that they need any moving about. The team spirit emit from this company is so great that it really feels like a big family altogether.
We first had to pick a leader from every table by pointing to that person when the Emcee called 1 to 3. An eight year old boy was sabotaged by their group member that he had to represent his table.

We were given a poker card and when the music goes, we had to find our other pair. I was holding on to a diamond 3 but I didn't find my other half. So I gave up and sat down to enjoy my steamed scallop served with asparagus, oblivious to my surrounding. I know. I can be such a spoil sport at times.

The next game, we were given an A4 paper each and we had to compete which team can make a paper aeroplane that could fly up the next floor. I then saw someone from other team crumpled the paper up into a ball so that they can just toss it up. Which is not wrong since they didn't specify what the plane has to look like.

Our team's paper plane didn't make it across the room, let alone up to the next storey.

When it came to the Big Boss's turn to toss the plane, the Emcee commented that even if the plane barely glide at the moment the boss throws it, we still have to give a grand cheer. Otherwise, no bonus will be paid out.

True enough, the plane simply plops on the floor and everyone cheered like we just won the world cup or something.

After that, we were given packs of straws to build the tallest tower. Apparently one table had an architect seated with them and everyone else felt challenged. Most towers looked like Eiffel but some just lay limp, looking like a home made by 3 little pigs blown by a wolf. Our tower didn't make it either. It was a major flop and we got boo-ed.

The next entertainment is really exciting. It got the crowd wild. There must be some kind of internal joke. 3 pairs had to do some kind of dance and when the last pair did cha cha, the temperature in the room just get higher and steamy. Everyone had their phone out for video, ready to be uploaded into youtube.

Everyone were fixated. And SEXCITED!

I had my fairshare of laughter and I felt like part of the family.

The lucky draw prizes were amazing. They were giving out air fryer and LED TV! By the time, they were giving out Ipad2, I was almost sure to resign and join this company instead.

And then they gave out iphone4s with 2 years contract signed (The Emcee joked that can only call back to office, everyone laughed) The winner who got the iPhone4 turned out to be a higher management and he went out to give a speech, how honoured he is to get one of the grand prizes and then he said, because I belonged to the China office, I will donate it back to Singapore team. Everyone else cheered and applaud.

This is very chivalrous of him and I felt commitment from a leader.

The Super Mega grand prize was a MacBook which has been gawked and eyeballed thru the night. I actually felt violated if I were the MacBook, having to be lusted this way.

And again, it was won by another management. So he came out and said, this lucky draw was actually pre arranged and he knew he will win the MacBook. (he got boo-ed. So, as we can all see, we have a sore audience)

And then he said, he will donate back for other employees to win it.

At this moment, I REALLY wanted to join this company.

The food? It was awesome! Genuinely 5 stars. I was served giant prawns, unlike other places where they serve shrimps.

Oh! I didn't win the 7million TOTO. I am gonna torch the XXX Pool building. (Of course, I do not literally mean this, just in case I am misunderstood)

Char Kuay Teow

2012-01-20T00:33:00.001+08:00

Just few days ago, my client took me out for a longed-sought after plate of char kuay teow. He has been talking about it for a while and finally, we overcome our guilt and settled down happily.

So we ordered extra cockles and extra pork lard since we have sinned, might as well go through the whole nine yard.

I am not a big fan of pork and I kinda sorta sworn to stay off pork, so i m a little halal for the moment.

I put the pork lard aside at my plate and as I was sweeping my plate with my chopstick, emptying my plate of char kuay teow, he exclaimed at my port lard and say, AIYO, the best part!!!

And I looked at this plate and gasp at the taiwanese sausages that he has put aside, "AIYO, the best part!!!

There goes the saying, One's man poison is another man's meat.

Thought of the day, why does dettol turn milky when mix with water?

hmmm...?

upside down meow meow

Stuff I do when I am bored

2012-01-18T22:05:00.001+08:00

Oh this is gonna be so interesting.

I am gonna post up the photos of the things I do when I am bored.

This was sometime last year.

mr snail on a lazy afternoon

lollipop lollipop..lolly lolly lollipop

mr bunny and carrot

suppose to be croissant but it doesnt look anywhere near that

snowman. no, he aint touching himself.

Yup, they are blu tacks and this was done during a training.

I am not exactly proud of myself for not paying attention.

Just a little amazed the things I could come up with while I am fidgety.

A pic a day

2012-01-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

I received feedback that my blog look too serious for a jester like me.
The exact word he used was "the blog look too serious for a happy person such as yourself"

Well, that's how i interpret it.

So I have decided to add a photo a day. That was my rule of thumb when I blog previously.

I am gonna start doing that again. And just for the hang of it, the photo will be random shots.

I will start with posting the photo of the cat who used to hang out alot just outside my house. Now that I moved out, I will eventually run out of her photo. (For a moment there, I didn't know whether to use HER or IT)

sleepy meow meow

Magic Rule of 21

2012-01-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

The monk who sold his Ferrari says one of the ways to achieve an objective is by the rule of 21. What it basically means is that it takes 21 days to cultivate a habit.

Hence I have been thinking what are the good habits and the bad habits that I have.

And also what are the habits that I want to have.

For year 2012, I made it a point to carry a book so that whenever an idea struck me, I can pen it down immediately. For a person who ponders a lot, I always forget what I have in my mind in seconds. And with this book, whenever I stumble across words that I do not know of, I will make it a point to look up for it in the dictionary and write the down the meaning so it also becomes a learning process for me.

I was just telling a friend of mine today that I have this funny habit of covering my ears when I sleep.

I am not gonna share why I cultivate the silly habit but it has something to do with a teacher, a story, and a lizard laying eggs.

There you go.

So I grow up covering myself up with my 5 inch thick quilt from my feet all the way up to my ears. From a far, you would thought you saw a giant poh piah.

me refusing to get up

*The monk who sold his ferrari by Robin Sharma

Oh, one more thing that I must do before I end the day.

I can't live without floss.

The art of procrastinating

2012-01-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

I was pondering on myself and I realised that it is part of human behaviour to procrastinate. Maybe feeling uninspired, demotivated, or simply just a sign of laziness. Or best yet, by not thinking about it, the task will miraculously disappear.

Past experiences show that no matter how hard I tried to make it disappear or shrug it off, the burden eventually come back and I still have to face my given task. I must say that my upbringing with a 24/7 mom have home has cultivate such habit - not to put it off when you can do it now, there and then. I often get those voices ringing in my head. The art of my mom nagging works!

On top of that, I somehow agree with her. One of her reasoning is, you have to do it anyway, might as well do it now and you don't have to think about it later. We often forget it or it might slip out of our mind. I realised being brought up this way has made me an efficient person and do not like to leave matters at the very last minute. If I do things at the very last minute, I am often left with very few choices as I tend get desperate with solving the matter. An example to illustrate the matter.

Scenario: Not packing my bag a day in advance which leads to me forgetting alot of things in the end. Which finally leads to me having to buy them at higher cost.
I always forget my toothbrush when I pack my bag. I am so familiar with toothbrushes prices already.

Nonetheless, having worked with a Singaporean Company has strongly enforced this habit deeper into me. If my mother's nagging has cover all area of my skin, wrapping every part of my flesh, being enforced during my working days has penetrate it through my skulls and my bones.

This has led me to conclude that I am not a person who procrastinate and will want to do finish off a task there and then. Possibly because I am someone who forgets easily due to my short attention span memories. Experiences has taught me I am not allowed to put situation at risk as it might happen as habit even on important matters.

I once forgot to pack my pants when I traveled to Copenhagen. This has led me to stay in the hotel room for 48 hours. How I have survived, I do not know.

Taken at KLIA at 7am.

challenges

2012-01-15T22:41:00.002+08:00

I realised that when I am spent some time alone, I do alot of pondering and self reflection.

During a course that I took back then, there is a subject that encourages us to do self reflection on a daily basis. We were asked to keep a journal to pen down our daily thoughts.

It is they called self-reflective analysis and often in smallest awareness, great potential for change takes effect.
I concluded that one of the skills to be a good manager is to listen. Often than not, many people do not listen or do not cultivate the art of listening. Many wants to be heard but none wants to do the listening. Is it one of human natures in staying perfect?
I also concluded that one of male traits is that the tendency to stereotype. It makes it harder to change one's view when it has been set so rigidly. It can be one of the turn off key in communication.
Hence the essential key point in people skills is listening. Always listen to what others have to say.
As I ponder further, I started to link with culture and upbringing. Can this be the factors that determine the way a person behaves.

shy meow meow

Petty petty people

2012-01-15T12:02:00.001+08:00

Today, as I was on my way to work, I witness an outraged incident.

What happened was that as I was about to cross a 2 lane road which was starting to bottle due to a big stationary truck ahead.

So this is what appear to be the best time to cross the road.

And I so happen to choose to cross in front of a white honda civic which was behaving a little truant, he sped.

An unfortunate couple did not shuffle as fast as I did, so I suppose that pisses them off that the car almost hit them. Maybe not hit, but brushed against their leg.

So the guy who was crossing the road, slap the car and said, hey, you almost touch me!

And the driver, who was as pissed as the guy for slapping his car, stopped the car and confronted the guy who slapped his car.

Anyhow, they stood there for a while, arguing about who has the right of the road.

The way I see it, the driver is one nasty person who was trying to be nasty.

After all it is a very petty incident which can brushed off.

Meow meow with attitude

Blogging once more

2012-01-08T23:47:00.001+08:00

Blogging, to me is so yesterday and I can't remember when was the last time I blogged.

I tried looking for my old achieve but no avail.

There are few reasons why I picked up blogging again.
One, I believe that it's a good way for self reflect after at day end. Second, it's good to write down some thoughts and 10 years down the road, looking back, it's nice to know how silly I once was.

Today, I found out that my old account in Friendster had gone through a transformation that I can't even recognise it anymore. My avatar shows a spikey dude, big head smaller body cartoon version which is not even somewhere near how I look. Not even during my bad hair days.

my new year was celebrated at the road side because we couldn't make it in time.

like a child

2006-10-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

I had a fantastic day today. Spent the entire day with Guan and Charng Sherng. Wanted to go to Ikea for my favourite chicken wings but apparently the queue was too long *quoted by Charng Sherng. We went to Suntec instead and have a scrumptious buffet! *smack lips.
I begin to feel muscles; especially my hamstring starts to ache, due to overdoing my workout yesterday (3 hours in the gym, the longest time ever) I bought dragon beard candy although I never like peanuts. I wish Roshan will be here to pick up the nuts for me.

We then went for dinner in Changi Village and had seafood because I had cravings for shellfish. It was cheap and good! There was 5 of us and we ordered 5 dishes! Yummy~
I met up with Fee Chin and we talked nonstop. It was really good to see her again. Misses her so much. She's such a nice person.

I realised I have left my keys behind when I was in hurry out of the house. I stayed with Guan till my brother get back. We went to the Pasir Ris park and I really had fun, just like a child. I was so excited and started running around the park. I couldn't remember when was the last time I was on a swing. Decade ago maybe? I remembered when I was very little, say about 4, along with my brother, my mom pushed us on a swing. Perhaps that was my very first attempt on it. I was laughing so hard and my dad took a photo of us and our mouth was wide open. My mom kept saying, hold on tight cause you are going higher! I remember laughing and it was the happiest moment in 4 years of life.

My bubbles of thoughts was burst by a group of intruder consist of 3 toddlers with their mommies. I shy away as I was 3 times the rider's size. It was fun until they came.

sunset view from the plane

power of prayer

2006-10-23T03:47:00.000+08:00

What are some ways of dealing with jealousy?
Develop independence. We need to be sure we are not overly dependant on any one person. We need to focus on the good things we have and not on what we don't have.
Focus on developing more confidence and attractiveness. Sometimes something simple like getting our hair done or changing our style of clothing can help. Taking a course on self esteem or assertiveness is also beneficial.
Be honest with yourself. Sit down with paper and list things that are making you jealous. Look at it objectively. Are these things silly or trivial or are they really important?
Communicate with the person who is the object of your jealousy. Tell them your feelings. Is that person doing something that is causing you to be jealous? Letting them know can often help the problem. If this other person cares for you, they will work on changing the behavior that is adding to your jealousy. Being aware of your feelings can also help you cope better. Realize that jealousy shows your lack of self esteem and uncertainty of your own worth. Work on taking a really good self evaluation. This experience can be a wonderful learning opportunity for you. Work on communication with other people. Work on developing confidence.
Study your rival. Look closely at the person you are jealous about. What do you like and dislike about the person? Are his or her qualities beyond your abilities? Be sure you are not being unrealistic about that person. Are you seeing things as they really are? Take control of your feelings. Terminate the relationship if nothing else seems to work. Take the time to concentrate on your own growth. Work at trying to understand and improve your relationship.
Do not overreact. Remember, most incidents are temporary so don't magnify what happened. Serious jealousy stems from a fear of loss, reputation, control of ourselves, our spouses, or relationships. Losing control of our emotions and feelings will only make things worse.

have gone mad

2006-10-22T06:14:00.000+08:00

Was sleeping peacefully but was woken up at 4am to open the door for a buddy friend.

Now he's sleeping like a baby on the couch while I m glued to the chair, reading blogs, other people's blog. That's sad.

A little zombied feeling, sorta regret deleting my previous blog. I had so much fun with it, even more now that I have left my job.

*Sigh

life seems locked inside, wanting to get out

visited countries

2006-08-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Gone for lunch sign board

2006-08-10T09:54:00.000+08:00

= suffering from backache =